the next day?

She should have died hereafter;
There would have been a time for such a word.
— To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing.

— Macbeth (Act 5, Scene 5, lines 17–28)

The speed of time’s arrow—against the wind-down of entropy—increases towards stage left. Can it find its mark? Meh. It’s not a good metaphor to encapsulate the flow of the temporal within the imagination of mind. Maybe tomorrow I’ll come up with a better one.

Scott ‘Scoop’ Butki 1969 – 2024

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Noting, gah, another sad passing—a couple days before President Carter’s—this of a friend in the BrainStorms-MetaNetwork virtual community that I’ve been participating in for more than 25 years. A sudden passing: he ended his life. (Hard to see and read that phrase, it seems to have brutally incorrect meaning.) Scott was a multi-talented, kind, humane be-ing. Though buffeted by many challenges he always expressed that kindness towards those he encountered—while resisting those who were intent on the oppression of others. He sought vital, personal, local, and community change/evolution within the often harsh nature of Amurikan society.

“It’s all about priorities,” he was known to say.

Scott "Scoop" Butki  1969-2024. Photo credit: Nancy Stefanik, Austin, Texas, March 2021.
Scott “Scoop” Butki 1969-2024. Photo credit: Nancy Stefanik, Austin, Texas, March 2021.
It is with heavy hearts that we announce the untimely passing of Scott Andrew Butki, who departed this life on December 27, 2024, at the age of 56.

Scott is survived by his mother, Joanne Butki; his brother, Jay Butki (wife Ju Kyung Butki); and his sister, Ellen Butki; his nieces, Natalia and Marina; his nephews, Arne and Jonno, and an extended family of friends and colleagues who will forever cherish his memory. He was preceded in death by his father, Arnold Butki, in 1999.

Scott grew up in Riverside, California, where he graduated from Riverside Poly High School. He earned a Bachelor of Science degree in Communications with a Journalism emphasis from California State Polytechnic University, Pomona, and later pursued a Master of Arts in Teaching at Frostburg State University in Maryland.

Scott began his professional journey in journalism, a career that allowed him to live in multiple states; California, Arizona, Arkansas, Maryland, Texas, and work for various organizations. His passion for storytelling was deeply rooted in his desire to inspire empathy and combat apathy among readers. He also sought to expose wrongdoing in local government and businesses. After more than a decade in journalism, Scott transitioned into education, focusing on special education to support marginalized communities. For over ten years, he dedicated himself to mental health work, often assisting teenagers with autism. Among his most cherished roles was teaching a Harry Potter-themed class at the University of Texas for adults with special needs.

Scott’s commitment to social justice was unwavering. Inspired by figures such as Gandhi and Martin Luther King Jr., he sought to live a life of non-violent activism. Through his involvement with the Unitarian Universalist church in both Hagerstown, MD, and Austin, TX, Scott worked on anti-racism education initiatives and partnered with local groups to promote equity and understanding.

A voracious reader, Scott set an ambitious personal goal of annually reading 50 books and interviewing 25 authors, a goal he met for many years. He also found joy in walking and running, playing backgammon, indulging in rocky road ice cream, listening to music, connecting with friends on social media, and tirelessly working to fight hate, not necessarily in that particular order. Everyone will miss his sense of humor and his weekly online questions on social media, such as ”What are you grateful for?” and “What made you smile today?”.

Scott’s life was defined by compassion, advocacy, and an enduring love for reading and learning. May his legacy continue to inspire all who knew him. He will be missed dearly but forever held in our hearts.

field work: witness

field work: witness, female greater sage-grouse (Centrocercus urophasianus), Upper Pool Creek, Dinosaur National Monument, Colorado, October ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
field work: witness, female greater sage-grouse (Centrocercus urophasianus), Upper Pool Creek, Dinosaur National Monument, Colorado, October ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.

In the process of phonographic listening/recording along Upper Pool Creek west of the Chew Ranch property, I came across this scenario. No clues as to what led up to it. The body seemed to be fresh and whole, life gone that very day perhaps? I didn’t disturb the scene: doubtful that such a nutrient/energy source would remain unconsumed in this wild environment for long.

It did bring back the memory of traveling to Dinosaur back in 1988 with Pablo where we visited his friend Renzo and wife Lisa. Renzo had recently taken the position of wildlife manager for 40,000 sq mi of the Monument and northwest Colorado. One morning, pre-dawn, we set out in his work truck and after a long drive, parked in the low sagebrush steppe and from a distance watched, in the greying Light, a lek where the dramatic mating ritual between dominant male and female Greater sage-grouse unfolded.

Experimental Conviction

Long life is one of the greatest Blessings that we Mortals can enjoy; it being what all Men naturally desire and wish for. Nay, when Men are come to the longest Date, they desire yet to live a little longer. But, however, Health is that which sweetens all our other Enjoyments, without which the longest Life would be no more than a living Death, and render us burdensome to our selves, and troublesome to all about us.

But though Life be so desirous, and Health so great a Blessing, yet how much is both the one and the other undervalued, by the greatest Part of Mankind? Whatever they may think or say of the inestimableness of those precious Jewels, yet ’tis plain, by their Practice, that they put the Slight upon, and despise them both; and the most Man are hardly sensible of the worth of Health, ’till they come in good Earnest to be deprived of it.

How many Men do we daily see, by their Intemperance and Excess, to lay the Seeds of future Distempers, which either carry them off in the flower of their Age, which is the Case of most or else render their Old Age, if they do arrive to it, uneasy and uncomfortable? And though we see others daily drop into the Grave before us, and are very apt with Justice to ascribe the Loss of our Friends, to their living too fast, yet we cannot forbear treading in the same Steps, and following the same Courses, ’till at last, by a violent and unnatural Death, we are hurried off the Stage of Life after them.

What the Noble Cornaro observes of the Italians of his Time, may very well be applied to this Nation at present, viz. “That we are not contented with a plain Bill of Fare; that we ransack the Elements of Earth, Air, and Water, for all sorts of Creatures to gratify our wanton and luxurious Appetites: That as if our Tables were too narrow and short to hold our Provisions, we heap them up upon one another. And lastly, That to create a false Appetite, we rack our Cook’s inventions for new Sauces and Provocations to make the superfluous Morsel go down with the greatest Gust.”

This is not any groundless Observation, but it carries an Experimental Conviction along with it. Look into all our publick Entertainments and Feasts, and see whether Luxury and Intemperance be not too predominant in them. Men, upon such Occasions, think it justifiable to give themselves the Loose, to eat heartily, and to drink deeply; and many think themselves not welcome, or well entertained, if the Master of the Feast be so wise as not to not give them an Occasion of losing the MAN, and assuming the BEAST.

Cornaro, Luigi. Sure and Certain Methods of Attaining a Long and Healthful Life. London, UK: Daniel Midwinter, 1722.

coitus in cena*

This was a year of infestations. Several varieties of grasshoppers hopped and flew rampant for a couple months, stripped my sole apple tree of leaves and were working hard on the native plum trees, stripping both the leaves and bark off any new shoots.

A detail from the stripped apple tree. Cedaredge, Colorado, August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
A detail from the stripped apple tree. Cedaredge, Colorado, August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
Branches from a large mint bush that was completely stripped in 24 hours by grasshoppers, Cedaredge, Colorado, July ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
Branches from a large mint bush that was completely stripped in 24 hours by grasshoppers, Cedaredge, Colorado, July ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.

As with all natural systems, though, a boom of one species will generate a boom in another. Predator, prey. In this case, praying mantises (Mantis religiosa), supremely well equipped to capture and consume the bumper crop of grasshoppers. There are hundreds of both beige and green mantises everywhere on the property. They have always held a fascination for me, primarily how attentive they are to the presence of another being. Commonly kept as pets, I encountered this pair in rural Colombia:

On the Llanos, near Paz de Ariporo, Colombia, January ©1984 hopkins/neoscenes
On the Llanos, near Paz de Ariporo, Colombia, January ©1984 hopkins/neoscenes
Hanging out at my garage door, in about 30 minutes this mantis consumed a sizeable grasshopper, head-to-toe, with the exception of the jumping legs. Cedaredge, Colorado, August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
Hanging out at my garage door, in about 30 minutes this mantis consumed a sizeable grasshopper, head-to-toe, with the exception of the jumping legs. Cedaredge, Colorado, August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.

Then the sex begins.

In flagrante delicto, the head already consumed, the female mantis continues feeding on the  thorax of the still alive male while actively receiving sperm. August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.
In flagrante delicto, the head already consumed, the female mantis continues feeding on the mesothorax of the still-living male while actively receiving sperm, yikes!. August ©2024 hopkins/neoscenes.

And ends.

* coitus during dinner

grace of vision

Our death is our wedding with eternity.
What is the secret? “God is One.”
The sunlight splits when entering the windows of the house.
This multiplicity exists in the cluster of grapes;
It is not in the juice made from the grapes.
For he who is living in the Light of God,
The death of the carnal soul is a blessing.
Regarding him, say neither bad nor good,
For he is gone beyond the good and the bad.
Fix your eyes on God and do not talk about what is invisible,
So that he may place another look in your eyes.
It is in the vision of the physical eyes
That no invisible or secret thing exists.
But when the eye is turned toward the Light of God
What thing could remain hidden under such a Light?
Although all lights emanate from the Divine Light
Don’t call all these lights “the Light of God”;
It is the eternal light which is the Light of God,
The ephemeral light is an attribute of the body and the flesh.
…Oh God who gives the grace of vision!
The bird of vision is flying towards You with the wings of desire.

Vitray-Meyerovitch, Eva de. Rûmî and Sufism. Sausalito, CA: Post-Apollo Press, 1987.

Phill Niblock 1933 – 2024

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Sorry for this text, it’s garbled, but I can’t make it less so in the moment. Check out some of the links below for more considered words and documentation of Phill’s presence and creative expressions. I’m dismayed at the number of obits that are appearing here … sheesh …

The other day I was reviewing older sound recordings on the website, one of which is a remix of sounds recorded at one of Phill Niblock’s annual Solstice events at his and Katherine’s loft in New York. Back in 2007 I was in the NYC area and was able to make it to one of these legendary happenings. A number of ShareNY friends had reminded me of them, and my modus operandi generally is when in town, check stuff out. And if Phill Niblock is doing something, well, there’s no excuse!

Winter Solstice event @ Phill and Katherine's place, New York City, NY, 21 December ©2007 hopkins/neoscenes
Winter Solstice event @ Phill and Katherine’s place, New York City, NY, 21 December ©2007 hopkins/neoscenes

So, it was sad to hear of Phill’s passing. The hundreds, thousands of performances that he made, participated in, or facilitated for other artists—most often within the aegis of the Experimental Intermedia Foundation over the years—had a profound impact on all who experienced them. The annual Winter Solstice events at their loft were especially intense both in the immersive visual-sonic sense, but also in the powerful element of basic human encounter: always a slew of interesting folks attending!

As is noted in other obits, being and doing were things that Phill did with a profuse and personable energy. I was lucky to cross paths repeatedly with he and Katherine on their numerous transAtlantic forays and in NYC related to some ShareNY events.

Phill’s experimental visual and sonic work implemented a solid-and-shimmering tableau of full-on psychic immersion in live performance. The Solstice happening was merely one of the hundreds that Niblock brought into this universe from another, parallel universe, where time, sound, and Light have both more subtle and more tangible presence and energy.

An openness for exploring the profundity of the temporal was something that Bruce Elder and Stan Brakhage exposed me to back in the 80s, so Phill’s monumental 16mm opus, The Movement Of People Working, was immediately, electrically, attractive. It forms a compelling exploration of what human presence and be-ing actually is, not merely how it manifests: this element of lived immediacy imprints itself, over time on the receiver. And, combined with the sonic expressions forms a holistic, immersive experience. (Morton Feldman‘s influence.) Transcendent!

We shared the idea of duration in performance work: perhaps related to our separate instances of experiencing the work of Feldman. Phill often bringing duration to a beautiful extreme that inevitably sparked internal change within the witness/participant (there is no audience in this regard, there is only the Void!).

Condolences dear Katherine, and for our shared loss.

Visit Phill’s website for a deeper plunge. This obit by Lawrence English is especially illuminating. And the NYT obit gives a wide view on Phill’s life.

Further insight into the Solstice Events with some documentation at Roulette; along with a 12-hour video.

stalling, re-starting

The Surface Creek property, Cedaredge, Colorado, June ©2023 hopkins/neoscenes.
The Surface Creek property, Cedaredge, Colorado, June ©2023 hopkins/neoscenes.

Creative output sputters and stalls in the face of tapering life energy, with far too many menial tasks absorbing the dregs. Future creative engagement requires that I relinquish this living situation and move on, sooner than later. Sure, the maintenance, ordering, and re-wilding process may be understood as creative in a wide, cosmological sense: a performative action affecting the state of the macrocosm. The amount of time siphoned off into property upkeep, along with the demands of the ‘regular’ j-o-b has precipitated a high level of social isolation—something that I’m not used to, and something that’s not good. Driving the maintenance desperation is an acute and currently unavoidable fear-of-the-future. Sheesh. The ratio of my embodied energy level to the overall entropy of the situation is in the negative orders-of-magnitude level.

e::E(s) ≥ 10-5

With no capital to exploit in this terminally oligarchic nation, aside from whatever I can physically manipulate.

There is a limit to what I can do to ‘catch up’ on years of zero wealth accumulation in the stead of transnational creative engagement (aka, bottom-feeding). Options are limited, but success depends more on the vitality of will—closely allied with physical stamina these days—along a simple fearlessness to make it happen. Fear is so diffuse—and previously not a factor—that surely it can be overcome (again) with focused human engagement.

Plans are developing. The first is leaving full-time work-for-pay despite compromising long-term viability. The second is to liquidate the property. Optimizing it for resale will require maybe six dedicated months, maximum, before moving on. The real estate market will be in better stead next year, barring civil conflict or another irruption of the Gaian system. Expatriation now the first choice. The extremities of Babylon’s current incarnation—hardly imagined by even the most cynical internal critic, well-known to those looking on from the outside—are a grinding black hole.

I arrived at this working/living situation having prioritized human connection over a stable and lucrative career (in the extractives industry where I started, or elsewhere). Unlike a lot of folks who follow a specific, planned trajectory, honing their talents in a particular field, gaining seniority and capital, I bounced around. Partly to maintain face-to-face contact with a widely dispersed human network, but also to sustain a flexibility that allowed for spontaneous participation in particular creative situations appearing along the way. Some, once trusted, have decided to label that as opportunism. I’ll deal with that hurtful critique in another posting. My general trajectory, though, despite that label, in other ways, was a mistake even with the rich array of participatory experiences it brought me into. Prioritizing stability, the known, the familiar rhythms of regular and predictable employment (and cash flow), ensuring (insuring!) future viability: this is the leitmotif of survival in the capitalist system, the rewards for a reliable prole. I prioritized change, instability, serendipity, spontaneity, and am paying the price of that. The time value of the abstracted instrument of social viability—money—requires long-term dependence and living-for-the-future. Well, the future has arrived: viability and life is emphatically transitory, there’s only one go-round. As Richard Pryor extolled: “I don’t give a FUCK!”

And what of Art? and Creativity?

whispered:
It all started a 17th of January, one million years ago.
a man took a dry sponge and dropped it into a bucket full of water.
who that man was is not important.
he is dead, but art is alive.
I mean, let’s keep names out of this.
as I was saying, at about 10 o’clock, a 17th of January. one million
years ago, a man sat alone by the side of a running stream.
he thought to himself :
where do streams run to, and why?
meaning why do they run.
or why do they run where they run.
that sort of thing.
personally, once I observed a baker at work.
then a blacksmith and a shoemaker.
at work.
and I noticed that the use of water was essential to their work.
but perhaps what I have noticed is not important.
normal voice:
anyway the 17th goes into the 18th
then the 19th then the 20th
the 21st the 22d the 23d the 24th the 25th the 26th the 27th
the 28th the 29th the 30th the
31st.
of January.
thus time goes by.

Robert Filliou‘s Whispered Art History (excerpt)

[ED: a decidedly gendered, old-school statement from a Fluxus founder … there are contemporary, open, and ongoing events that arose around this text, establishing 17 January as Art’s Birthday. I used to participate, but haven’t lately. The last major Fluxus-related happening was Fluxus Akademie discussion/lunch at Mary‘s in Rösrath in 2013. And in the incommunicado haze of the past few months, I discover Mary’s gone, back in March. Yet another remembrance to craft, reminding: no time to lose.]

Calmness accompanies the whole. Fear accompanies the part. Intuition goes beyond the figure-ground focus of conscious perception.

Prather, Hugh. Notes to Myself: My Struggle to Become a Person. New York, NY: Bantam Books, 1990.

Minna Tarkka 1960 – 2023

Saddened to receive news from Andrew that friend, colleague, artist, researcher, producer, and facilitator Minna Tarkka had passed, far too young, on 27 August after a very brief illness.

Researcher Minna Tarkka received the state award for media art in December 2017, Helsinki, Finland. Photo credit: Martti Kainulainen / Lehtikuva.
Researcher Minna Tarkka received the state award for media art in December 2017, Helsinki, Finland. Photo credit: Martti Kainulainen / Lehtikuva.

I arrived in Helsinki, Finland, gritty-eyed, after an early morning flight from Reykjavík, in late August, 1994, on the first of many visits, sojourns, gigs, workshops, and residencies. After dropping my luggage at my friend Visa’s print-making studio on Jääkärinkatu, I made my way to Arabianranta and the University of Art and Design Helsinki (Taideteollinen korkeakoulu, or TAIK, now the Aalto University School of Arts, Design and Architecture), located then in the old Arabia porcelain factory on Hämeentie. I was in Helsinki for the International Symposium on Electronic Art (ISEA) and, later, for an international performance event (Fax You) at the Akademie Bookstore on Helsinki’s Night of the Arts with the Finnish artist, Visa Norros and others. ISEA was being hosted that year by the Media Lab at TAIK and directed by Minna Tarkka, a person who did things, who showed up, and who inspired others to show up and do things.

I first met Minna later that morning at the TAIK Arabianranta building on the 3rd Floor at the Media Lab—actually we collided in the hallway—auspicious and a bit embarrassing! She was dashing from Point A to Point B as Director during the very hectic symposium registration. After both of us proffered sheepish apologies and introduced ourselves, she took me around, introducing me to some of the media arts luminaries attending the symposium and to staff at the Lab. This was the first of many examples of her unsparing generosity. It was during the symposium that I fully entered her energized sphere of influence there in Finland, where we had a number of memorable dialogues around the ethics and creative possibilities of the rapidly expanding field of electronic media in which she was a thought pioneer. As Associate Professor at the Lab, she later facilitated my return in the spring of 1995 to teach a four-week course. And a few years following that, she was totally supportive of the course netculture that I developed and taught at the Lab in 2000-2001. Her parallel trans-disciplinary course, “Cultural Usability,” critically examined new media design that was inclusive of sociological, cultural, and technological perspectives. Years earlier in 1987, she was the founding Director of MUU, the ‘alternative’ arts organization that has since been a major international player in new media arts. And two years later, she was a founding member of AV-arkki yet another power-house media arts resource and artists’ association there in Finland.

In those earlier days of our acquaintance (and of the WWW itself), her research and art work around spatial metaphors in virtuality, the aesthetics of immersion, and the dynamics of interaction and consumption were of special interest to me, as she explored the fundamentals of human relation as mediated by this ‘new’ technology. She made some highly original and deep dives into the aesthetic and ethical dimensions in the design of spaces for interaction. And all the while, she worked as a facilitator of human encounter, organizing, producing, and participating in many subsequent events, culminating with the formation of another cultural NGO, m-cult in 2000. Right up to the present, m-Cult has exerted a strong influence on the international critical engagement of culture with technology, leading with a profound sense of humane social activism. Yet another influential expression of her energies.

I never made a portrait of her and there seem to be only a handful of poor digital traces. She was a bit shy and soft-spoken. I have a vague memory of the epic RinneRadio concert at ISEA and a huge crowd dancing away, Minna included. She knew how to have an expansive time! That she is gone is yet another loss to many of us who are still pacing about this stage. Minna you will be fondly remembered and deeply missed.

[ED: I will add any reflections and comments from others to this posting as they surface. I’ve been reaching out to friends and former colleagues from those former life-changing times.]

Mary Bauermeister 1934 – 2023

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Incommunicado, distracted this whole calendar year by exhausting j-o-b tasks, along with endless, heavy, slow physical labor on the property, I completely missed Mary‘s passing in March. Her NYT obit gives some sense of her powerful creative trajectory and persona as an artist and a convener of artists.

In Mary's studio, Forsbach, Germany, June ©2013, hopkins/neoscenes.
In Mary’s studio, Forsbach, Germany, June ©2013, hopkins/neoscenes.

Volker had told me late last year she was declining from cancer and that Simon had moved into the Forsbach house to look after her. But it was too much for him, and she was subsequently moved to a care facility. I had planned to spend some time with her back in March 2020 during my Covid-aborted Germany trip, and now, she’s gone. The last time then, were the days spent in 2013 at Forsbach, the highLight being the day-long Fluxus Akademie meeting that she convened, inviting me along with a number of German academics and artists in her orbit. Her energy was astounding: just shy of 80 y.o., she raced around the house preparing for both the meeting and in the kitchen, a sumptuous luncheon. Helping her as best I could, I almost had a heart attack myself when, at one point, as she ran back and forth from the kitchen to the meeting space, she tripped and fell up the stone steps between the rooms. Showing no injury, she brushed herself off and kept going at high-bustle speed: the indomitable dynamo that she was her entire life! “I provide” as she says below.

We first met in Aachen at the Avantiere* exhibition in 1990 that HaWeBe (Hans Werner Berretz) organized at the Aula Carolina. Mary had a sculptural installation “Zeit”; my installation was “der Apkalyptische Traum” that was wrapped around the massive stone columns of the ancient hall.

I was the oldest daughter. I had an older brother whom I loved very much and four younger sisters. So I was then the provider of the family. I always had to, that is, I wanted to. I thought that was wonderful. I actually provided very early on. Later my children almost resented me for that, because my love is always in providing. I am a human being. If someone tells me you don’t love me, don’t hug me, I provide, I like to provide for people, and my kind of love has to do with providing, not necessarily with cuddling and hugging. That I had to do without that for too long in my life. In order to take that importantly now, I then also learned to put away nicely ascetically. As a child, I saw colors around every object, moving colors. One would call that today aura, above all around living things, but also around stones. Stones were not dead for me. — Mary Bauermeister
"Zeit", mixed media, Mary Bauermeister, Avantiere exhibition, Aachen, Germany, March ©1990 hokins/neoscenes.
“Zeit”, mixed media, Mary Bauermeister, Avantiere exhibition, Aachen, Germany, March ©1990 hopkins/neoscenes.

That’s also where I first connected with Simon Stockhausen, her son. He performed a long improve electronica piece—an hommage to the works in the show—as his then girlfriend, Tina, pulled his synth rig around the space. I unfortunately hadn’t any access to a decent recording device at that juncture, having hopped down to Germany from Reykjavík just a few months after moving there from the US, footloose.

Simon Stockhausen, prepping, Avantiere exhibition, Aachen, Germany, March ©1990 hopkins/neoscenes.
Simon Stockhausen, prepping, Avantiere exhibition, Aachen, Germany, March ©1990 hopkins/neoscenes.

Over the times we crossed paths, I never did a portrait of Mary, it seemed too trivial a gesture in the face of her powerful life-energy (there’s her hearty laughter in my ear!), instead I shot a lot of interiors at her unique house (designed by Erich Schneider-Wessling) there in Rösrath which was, essentially, a working museum. Among countless other objets d’art, stones, crystals, and musical instruments was a set of absolutely huge Tibetan singing bowls. They amplified and resonated with her fundamental life-energy. The garden was also the site of numerous permanent installations including the largest singly terminated quartz crystal I’ve ever had the opportunity to hang around.

in Mary's living room, Forsbach, Germany, June ©2013 hopkins/neoscenes.
in Mary’s living room, Forsbach, Germany, June ©2013 hopkins/neoscenes.

Thank you, Mary, for so freely sharing your prodigious creative energies with so many of us, and thank you for providing.

* Hans Werner introduces Mary and the rest of us starting around 00:15:30 in the video following a long introduction by a critic whose name I can’t recall. I shot this on a borrowed VHS machine that Léo managed to snag from his office. Ancient history!

Eddie Lopez 1956 – 2023

¿Qué decir? I only knew Eddie Lopez by voice, as a DJ on KXLU‘s weekend program Alma Del Barrio.

Listened to him starting in 1982 when I moved to Santa Monica, just six years after he joined Alma, a program that spawned my abiding love of salsa—its energy, its incredible musicians, and the culture that brought it to be. Gracias Eddie por todo … bailar en!!

ecological education

One of the penalties of an ecological education is that one lives alone in a world of wounds. Much of the damage inflicted on land is quite invisible to laymen. An ecologist must either harden his shell and make believe that the consequences of science are none of his business, or he must be the doctor who sees the marks of death in a community that believes itself well and does not want to be told otherwise.”

Leopold, Aldo. A Sand County Almanac and Sketches Here and There. New York, NY: Oxford University Press, 1972.

Peter Lamborn Wilson 1945 – 2022

Dammit. Another passing. Peter Lamborn Wilson, aka Hakim Bey. Got this news and the following remembrance today from friend Konrad Becker, founder of Public NetBase in Vienna.

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Peter Lamborn Wilson died in his apartment in Saugerties in upstate New York last night, reportedly from a heart attack.

A “Cyberguru” in the nineties he had no email address and wrote his pieces by hand, or on an old typewriter. With 70+ books and titles like Pirate Utopia, he inspired several generations. However, his visceral abhorrence of digital media was softened by his clever use of resources in a digitally savvy environment. As the author of Temporary Autonomous Zone he was guest at the inauguration of Public Netbase and a regular visitor here in Vienna.

Sadly, despite his personal integrity, his fame and colorful queer identity also triggered offending smears and innuendo hard to oppose. In his last months he spoke self-deprecatingly of himself as an old hippy, maybe he was, I just wish there were more of this kind. While many drift into senility in their early forties, he was bright as a button until his last day and had more clever things to say about the electronic media realm than most of the new media experts I ever met.

Following up on his contribution to the book “Digital Unconscious – Nervous Systems and Uncanny Predictions!” and with the support of Autonomedia, Felix Stalder and I ventured into a series of deeper inquiries into the fabric of media un/consciousness.

There is a general narrowing and flattening of the imagination due to the global spread of consumerism and the increasing abstraction and quantification through which the social world is constructed. PLWs work can be understood as an exploration of alternative ways of being in the world that could offer escape routes.

We, by way of Jim Flemming and Fred Barney Taylor, conducted the last interview just a few days ago. In his last interviews he liked to talk of the end of the world which he defined as an ongoing process. His lucid analysis of what went wrong in the last few thousand years was never defeatist rather it was a call to arms.

As he liked to say: Even if you are going to die tomorrow, plant a tree today. The rebellious spirit of PLW and his alter ego Hakim Bey will be immensely missed.

His essay T.A.Z.: The Temporary Autonomous Zone, Ontological Anarchy, Poetic Terrorism condensed and articulated some core essences of my learning facilitation and media arts praxis while simultaneously atomizing it into a negentropic flow. I ran across it as I began to engage in the European context of media criticism and activism in the early 90s. The Anarchist Library has a wide selection of his other writings well worth perusing. A second fave selection is Overcoming Tourism which strips away the hollow shell of elite migrations of consumption, leaving the displacement of the soul as the core value of movement. Its modest goal … is to address the individual traveler who has decided to resist tourism. Thank god!

Knowing there were thinkers and writers, articulators like Wilson out there formed a supportive web of like-minds when the difficult situations arose in the facilitation of open systems, autonomous zones, wherein spontaneous creative action was not simply welcome, it was the essence of be-ing in such a zone. A few of my own reflections on the TAZ along the way.

Rick Albertson 1957 – 2022

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We—Rick Albertson’s colleagues, fellow artists, activists, and friends—are deeply moved by his recent passing. Over many decades, Rick touched each of us in ways as diverse as his many interests, affections, and talents. At one time or another, we all will have been moved by his wit, candor, loyalty, and elan vital. He has indeed been a significant vector for us, nudging the course of our lives about in important ways. Many will have known greater joy, hope, and success on a given day because of Rick. Our debts to him are incalculable…but no matter, as Rick in his usual generous style would have forgiven those anyway!

Rick was an alumnus of the Penn State theater department where he obtained a degree in set design, a passion he had already cultivated by his mid-teens when working for the Erie Civic Theater Association. At that time, Rick was a lighting technician and also performed in the theater’s pit orchestra. Upon graduation, Rick was employed by various staging companies as well as operating one himself. His professional exploits carried him all over the US where he was responsible for staging countless conferences and media events. His colleagues will have known him for his boundless energy, creativity, and hands-on troubleshooting skills. There was no technical competency that Rick didn’t seem to possess. He had a way of bringing a sense of festivity into even the most stressful of working environments.

While based for many years in Atlanta, Rick played electric bass in many well-known jazz, rock, and blues bands, laying down a crucial bottom line at all sorts of performances and events. Forever in search of adrenaline, he was a crew member on the emergency rescue team at Road Atlanta Raceway, and he also managed to infect some of us with his love of whitewater rafting and scuba diving.

A voracious reader of…well…anything he could get his hands on, Rick was also an accomplished writer. He moved to California during the dot-com bubble where he worked for Talk City as an editor and administrator. Following that, Rick went to Boston as Contributing Editor for Senator John Kerry’s web site. Rick was also an active contributor to other sites like Democratic Underground and The Daily KOS. He eventually returned to Pennsylvania where he continued to be active in liberal politics, a lifelong passion of Rick’s where he worked as an activist on many fronts. Rick cherished democracy and seized every opportunity to promote and preserve it.

Rick’s capacity for listening and empathizing was unparalleled. Lastly, he went on to work with the Mental Health Association of Northwestern PA as a Certified Peer Specialist, interacting directly with a diversity of mental health clients…a perfect fit for this energized and energizing, compassionate man. It’s somehow appropriate that he will have touched their lives as he has ours…with affection, humor, love…and an inimitable way of assuring that all can and shall be well!

Andee Baker, Santa Fe, NM, USA; Ann Hyland, Wexford, IRELAND; Anneke Toomey, Loveland, CO, USA; Ari Davidow, Boston, MA, USA; Camille Vahey, Erie, PA, USA; Emily Zielinski, Canandaigua, NY, USA; Howard Rheingold, Mill Valley, CA, USA; Janna Nelson, Albuquerque, NM, USA; Janice MacDonald, Edmonton, AB, CANADA; John Hopkins, Cedaredge, CO, USA; John Mulligan, Silver Spring, MD, USA; John W. Hays, Beldenville, WI, USA; Kate Gilpin, Richmond, CA, USA; Mark Osiecki, Heidelberg, GERMANY; Mary, Seattle, WA, USA; Nan Stefanik, Newfane VT, USA; Michele Armstrong, Cupertino, CA, USA; Richard J. Lee, Oakland, CA, USA; Robert Crosby, Redmond, OR, USA; Sarah Cherry, Melburne, AUSTRALIA; Scott Butki, Austin, TX, USA; Scott Hooker, Albuquerque, NM, USA; Stephen Engel, Portland OR, USA; Susan Uskudarli, Istanbul,TURKEY; Tom Whitmore, Seattle, WA, USA; Valerie Bock, Decatur, IL, USA; Ward Bell,  Minneapolis, MN USA; Will Osiecki, Montreal, QC

Alvin Augustus Lucier Jr. 1931 – 2021

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An influence: experimental composer, sound artist, free and open thinker. (On Ubuweb; on Discogs). The first generation of 20th Century sonic artists are falling. Last August, it was R. Murray Schafer, before that in 2016 it was Pauline Oliveros.

Having students sit for 45 minutes to hear the entirety of “I am sitting on a room …” — last imposed that on my “Ways of Listening” students at UTS in Sydney. They absorbed it without complaint, unlike my Amurikan students who balked and whined <sigh>.

I am sitting in a room different from the one you are in now. I am recording the sound of my speaking voice and I am going to play it back into the room again and again until the resonant frequencies of the room reinforce themselves so that any semblance of my speech, with perhaps the exception of rhythm, is destroyed. What you will hear, then, are the natural resonant frequencies of the room articulated by speech. I regard this activity not so much as a demonstration of a physical fact, but more as a way to smooth out any irregularities my speech might have.”

Lucier’s 90th birthday celebration … a 24-hour global performance of … “I am sitting in a room” … May 2021

waking to death

Solstice pre-dawn seeps in the windows, and I wake up to thoughts of death and the gaping maw that it is. How can it be? How is it? What is it? Why is it? Never any answers. Psychospiritual gymnastics, any sort of denial or questioning, nothing stands against it. Pointless to consider. But how to come to some relation with it? I’ll have to dig up my copy of the Rinpoche’s Tibetan Book of Living and Dying. It brought some tiny modicum of thoughtful peace as I witnessed my mother dying. But that was the Other, not the Self, staring down the Void. All that is different now.

The difference in those two conditions is as stark a contrast as one can consider even though there is no ultimate difference, only (mortal) time frames. (cue: Dark Side of the Moon)

Faugh.

And the day closes with the horrible news that Nora, EJ’s youngest, passed today. Another victim of the fentanyl scourge. Only tears to offer in the moment. Unspeakable catastrophe. What has the world become?

Ever darker: the Solstice shift not sufficient, although Light is coming. Please.

Nora Ferris Meade 1999 – 2020

Another impossible brutality: the year closes with the passing of EJ’s youngest daughter, Nora.

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Nora Ferris Meade of Boulder, Colorado, died in Scottsdale, Arizona on December 22, 2020. She was 21 years old. Nora, born in Boulder on August 28th, 1999, was a spirited young woman with a radiant smile. Nora was a true child of Boulder, attending Horizons elementary and Casey middle schools. A talented artist, Nora was interested in design and as a teen won Boulder’s Recycled Runway fashion competition for a dress she made using key rings and metal film canister caps. She was also a strong athlete, competing as a gymnast with Boulder’s CATS team for seven years, earning a place on Boulder High School’s competitive dance team, and–most recently–instructing scuba diving in Costa Rica. (When she was a four-year-old child, Nora’s love of climbing and heights led to her shimming up the support beams in her family home.) Besides living in Costa Rica, Nora traveled with her family to Portugal, Vietnam, Italy, and throughout the United States. Following graduation from Boulder High, Nora spent a year in the South Pacific extensively diving on the Great Barrier Reef. It was here that Nora developed her love for diving and an awareness of the fragility of the marine environment and the threat of climate change upon the world’s reefs. Nora graduated from Boulder High School in 2017 and studied for several semesters at the University of Colorado-Boulder. In the past several years, as she was making and selling art, Nora fought an anxiety-related addiction. She was an active member of the Scottsdale recovery community. She often hiked in the mountains around Scottsdale and loved complicated jigsaw puzzles, completing them with patience and speed. Nora is survived by her loving father, EJ Meade; her caring, older sister, Eliot; her stepmother, Tina Scala who loved her unconditionally; and her stepbrother, Luca Wolf-Scala. Her mother, Bridget Klauber, died when Nora was fourteen.

Nora (second from left), with three of her friends, Boulder, Colorado, August ©2014 hopkins/neoscenes.
Nora (second from left), with three of her friends, Boulder, Colorado, August ©2014 hopkins/neoscenes.

what enters the picture

There are many things to consider writing about. Chatter could trace previously tracked word-lines in this blog, but the dominant shift is the entry into an entirely new space of being. One that reminds from moment-to-moment of the transitory nature of being. Head hurts when thinking why is this, how can this be?

That shift: cancer. After being an outsider to that cruel club, I was provisionally accepted some months back, then given a fully validated membership with attendant privileges: dread, fear, and a shifted understanding how those Others in my life had to feel when they too had been admitted. Littering life’s stage: some fell to a scourge that quickly consumed them, a raging incarnate fire; some have not yet succumbed to the dark coals; some fought and, seemingly, won. Was it water that quenched the flames?

At first, indirect evidence, a number on a lab report. Then biopsy, then initial prognosis, delivered on my birthday: Thanks Doc, for checking my personal data before calling! Aggressive is one operative word. Statistics suddenly loom in mind. What will I die of? Does an answer, or even the imposition of the question even matter?

Anthony Zega 1962 – 2019

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[Ed: I will continue with these remembrances, in the moment this is all I can manage to compose.]

I’m tired of writing remembrances, each one reminds of the passing, fading nature of be-ing. I don’t need to be reminded that Life closes off, a box canyon with sheer varigated walls, cross-cut sediments of past-time on display. Fossilized life, fragments of bone, amber protrude from the sheer layered walls. Evidence of those who went before. Where are they? what are they doing? Somehow, Anthony’s passing clears something away, psychically: that he has made the transition, into the Bardo, and beyond. Not that he deserved it at his age, but that he was released from the physical ravages that cancer was imposing on his body. Following him, and the expanding number of others, will perhaps be less terrifying.

portrait, Anthony, Boulder, Colorado, December 1987

I met Anthony on the way out the door of Parson’s photo department building on 5th Avenue, just north of Washington Square Park, in the fall of 1985.

“The primary principle of this age in the West is decay.”

Yup. That resonated, still does. As elsewhere noted, that profound and concise observation marked the beginning of a long friendship that explored the surfaces of the world and the energies and patterns of flow behind those surfaces. It maintained itself for 34 years despite the infrequent crossings-of-path. Aside for a year or so when we were house-mates in a couple places in Boulder, it took the form of a rich correspondance along with the occasional meetings-up that were always electric. Princeton, Manhattan, Peters Valley, Newton, and then all the locales experienced on a handful of profound road-trips in the US West. Death Valley (including a legendary night in Las Vegas on New Years Eve — photographing the insanity of the place); across the Rez’ in Arizona, picking up hitch-hikers; dealing with extreme weather transiting the Colorado Rockies; time at the Great Sand Dunes; and all the while, closely observing the perfidy of the contemporary capitalist oligarchies and, if nothing else, making fun of it. National Dead People. Stick Puppets on Display. The George P. Schultz Delirium Tremens Telephone. He left the East Coast in 1987 or so, and engaged in a long meander around the West, deeply influenced by his encounters with the Native American cultures and histories. His passionate, spirited, sensitive, and brilliant intellect — a full-spectrum laser — initiated a reducing flux that operated powerfully in his poetic work. None of it easily consumed, he did not share it with more that a handful of people ever.

Our last day shared together was in 2014, a long one spent at the Met, wandering through Strawberry Fields and Central Park, and dinner at the Whole Foods cafeteria on the Upper West Side near his mother’s flat where he’d been living for a few years. He had been worn down by the ignominy of working in the retail “adrenalized sporting complex”. But he had also met Maite, a Catalonian woman, who he joined in Barcelona in 2016. Best that he was out of the US for the repugnance of oligarchy and destruction that has ensued.

The written word was his primary medium in more recent years, although his photographic work was an important and powerful expression as well. It was the case, however, that he was intensely private, and most of his creative output came in the form of letters, and for the last decade more than a thousand emails that included an image, a dense poetic work, or a carefully laid-out pdf word piece, or some combination of those. In the mid-80s he did have a few prose pieces published in Marvin Jones’ The New Common Good in New York City, as their “Western Correspondent”. The only one I have a copy of is an excerpt of “The Tourist“. All of his negatives and writings up to relatively recently were apparently lost to flooding at his mother’s place in Princeton. It appears that I am more-or-less the sole holder of his remaining artistic legacy: with a fat folder of beautifully hand-penned communications.

From a letter I wrote to Anthony, back in 1991, from what was home, then, Reykjavík:

There is a bit of nostalgia in my mind, but more, there is the respect for you as a creator, discoverer, synthesist, See-er, and, um, Voice-of-Consciousness from the Mouth of Chaos, more or less. (I find meself writing in Literal ways these days, unable to couch clearly or veil rightly, no figures dancing between the words). I have your three cards sitting, always self-aware, they are, there on the desk next to the Printer. In a small attic space, ceiling too low for me to stand, but fine to write, skylights at my back open to a 20-hour sun day. (Fela doin’ “Zombie”). I can feel the plasma mass pressure of the sun Light pressing down, trying to flatten the landscape into a line, a mote, but the earth is in constant retching here, heaving basalt sky-ward, building sites, Places for the People to live. You have fed me bits from a variety of Others — Others speaking about Others — or a saying about unsay-able things or, yes, That which is … … … Thank you.

where are we now?

Turbulence, chaos, confusion, extremity, consumption, inequality, decadence, decline, destruction.

What else is new? Are we sliding towards a self-induced eco-catastrophe or simply ‘evolving’ as a species? Are we, with our presumed intelligence and altruism, any greater than one singular expression of Life on this particular planet? Does Life deserve to be considered ‘special’? Or is it merely the way the cosmos (comes and) goes? Or is it all and everything?

What is to be made of the juxtaposition of science and spirit. Is spirit anything to construct a life around? Should spirit be considered when embodied and lived memory is so blinded and transitory? How is it possible to think of eternity when the immediacy of daily stress erases all dreams?

Do we misapprehend all the natures of ‘reality’? As we position ourselves, solid backs against solid walls: walls and backs that we assume are things to press against each other. The conundrum of ‘thing-ness’ a cruel lie in itself, over-arching our transitory nature. Dust unto dust. Any wall crumbles into, what?

Questions accumulate as life winds down into another fall, then winter: one future, spring in another place. Possibly. If fear can be eradicated from body-system. And the numbers look good.

And in mind, only jumbled fragments, nothing to hold to. Nothing to allow as meaningful, no construction of temporary artful expressions, nothing to bring fire to be-ing. Human encounters become so occasional, so distant outside of ‘work’, that they have no effect. Memory retains no imprint. Equinox brings no balance.

Death stalks Barcelona. Anthony goes silent. Thoughts wander to ancient Western road-trips: Death, and the many lively times sharing a space with him in Boulder. No word from Maite, she must be suffering terribly. Remote presence shows its cruel side, that mediated distance is not bridged.

Larry Gibbs

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There’s a deep stain in the carpeting, a rime ring from soaked boots through the winter. Grimy baseball hat pulled down, a small radio with earphones sitting on the couch. Flyers at the front desk of the Golden Community Center announce:

Funeral Service for
Larry Gibbs
our longtime homeless visitor in the 8th St. Lobby
First United Methodist Church of Golden
1500 Ford Street (parking lot on Jackson St)
August 1st,
2019
10:00 a.m.

Sheesh. I blew this one. He was there almost everyday of the last two years that I’ve been a member of the Community Center. Asked me once for some money which I never carry. I said “hey” to him 30% of the time, when he was not out smoking or in the bathroom, and we had eye contact. He would nod, his eyes invisible under the brim of that hat. I can’t say how many times I *thought* about bringing him lunch, or taking him with me down the street to the Eldorado, or buying a punch-card for him to use the facilities of the center. I did not go beyond this. I even would walk *outside* down the social trail to go in the main entrance instead, not wanting to pass him by and have those thoughts that I was conscious I probably would not act on appear. I was also conscious that I did not know his name, did not ask him for it. I told a friend that it was a moral dilemma, moving the thoughts to action in the situation. I failed to choose correctly; correctly in my own mind. Why?

Hard to know how he felt about being ignored by folks, in the widest picture down to the individual slights like mine. Attention is necessary to maintain life.

Justin Kaipo Kaoni 1976 – 2018

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It was a shock to receive this news. Indeed, all the loving words in his obit are true. Justin worked his deft and skilled magic on the ponderosas in my yard there in Prescott. But far more than that, he was a beautiful, affable, intelligent human presence in the lives that he touched. Generous with his time and energies, he always carried others around him to a Lighter and more profound moment. In a small way, I documented some of his tree-work with audio and some portraits over the years — his presence will be greatly missed, never forgotten. Indeed, his influence on the ecosystem of the area will live on far beyond human years.

portrait, Chase, Justin, and Nick, Prescott, Arizona, April 2015

On Friday, Dec. 7, 2018, the world lost one of its best people. Justin Kaipo Kaoni, inventor of the karate chop dance move, was called home by his creator.

Justin was born in Lahaina, Hawaii, to Chris and Sam Kaoni on Oct. 20, 1976.

As a young child, you could find him swinging from a banyan tree or roaming Wahikuli beach in search of seashells and sand crabs. At age six, the family relocated to Prescott, Arizona, where he would make the ponderosa pine forest his playground for the remainder of his life.

Everyone who met Justin was touched by his relentless love of life and genuine presence of being. His intellect, foresight and humble leadership was sought out by anyone who had a problem to solve or a project to build. In his career as owner/operator of Mile High Tree Service, he spent many days in the canopy with his crew removing branches and treetops. Nimble as a ring-tailed lemur and strong as an ox, he would perform the work of three men while wearing an ear-to-ear grin. He protected the city of Prescott as a former Granite Mountain Hotshot and defensible space ninja.

He turned superhero at night as adopter of strays (human and canine), distributor of smiles/sage advice, and midnight snack chef. Purveyor of good eats, his home kitchen has a Michelin star and no shortage of loyal patrons.

On a lucky night in Las Vegas, Justin met the love of his life when he crossed paths with Shannon Rhoades of Riverside, California. A few years later, they were married on a perfect spring evening, May 6, 2006. Together they raised three amazing children, Shane, Elena and Chaz, who continue to make their father and family proud every day. Shannon and Justin’s profound love for each other has never faded in 12 years of marriage, as affirmed by their recent renewal of vows at the place where they met.

Justin was proficient in everything he spent time doing, but was best at spreading love and positivity. He will be remembered by everyone who was lucky enough to meet him (even just once).

He is survived by his wife, Shannon; children, Shane, Elena and Chaz; father, Samuel; sister, Sierra; and brothers, Brad and Kaikea. He was predeceased by his mother, Chris Kaoni-Turner.

An awesome celebration of life will be held at Mountain Club Clubhouse, Sunday, Dec. 16, at 1 p.m., 900 W. Clubhouse Drive, Prescott, Arizona. All are welcome to be a part of the Kaoni ‘ohana (family) for the day and come share a story about this amazing person.

In lieu of flowers, have a laugh and meal with a close friend in his honor, or donate to the Eric Marsh Foundation for Wildland Firefighters @ https://ericmarshfoundation.org.

Information provided by survivors.

dear Jules is gone

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Julietta Luna Natalia (12 December 1999 — 04 March 2019)

Julietta Luna, Louisville, Colorado, December 2017 (Credit: Dona Laurita)

Can there be words? Words that aid in sharing the loss, words that distribute the vast sorrow among those remaining. Can all souls on the planet share this terrible passing, with sighing, with singing, with tears, with a rage against the dying of this singular Light?

Armin Medosch 1962 – 2017

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I wanted to write specifically for the blog concerning the shared history with Armin, but all I can manage is to copy (with minor additions) what I sent out to the nettime list. Another nettimer, Felix Stalder wrote some personal and general memories (the thread includes many diverse thoughts from fellow nettimers) and someone put together a pdf on monoskop.

Sharing the experiences of many of you, I can recall numerous encounters with Armin in Helsinki, Riga, Vilnius, Berlin, London, Linz, Hasselt, Amsterdam, and possibly elsewhere, back into the mid-90s. Some good partying, dancing, dinners, and dialogue. Yes, a challenging and idiosyncratic personality, but his extremely wry, dry, and funny humor, his presence, his voice (powerful both sonically and intellectually), and his generosity was a warm and beautiful addition to the many conclaves. Indeed, he was everywhere.

Thanks to the RIXC crew for being a perfect platform in the series of Acoustic Space / Wave editions and exhibitions/meetings that have Armin’s intelligent fingerprints all over them.

I can’t pin-point the last time I spent time with him f2f, I guess it was in 2008 or so, in Netherlands or maybe in London. A raucous dinner somewhere. Oh, no, actually he was at Pixelache 2013 in Helsinki and Tallinn along with a bunch of us Brico people.

He was always to be counted on to turn in a well-considered and passionate commentary when things on brico, spectre, nice, nettime, new-media-curating, idc, and certainly other listservs turned sour or so. In my email archive, I see 495 emails, and smile reading some of them…

As a teacher, he had an instinctual gift to understand the degrees of freedom necessary for learning to proceed. We shared our strategies on how to deal with the institutional frameworks that tended to dull true learning. Back in 2013 he sent me a packet of his (formal) class descriptions (unfortunately, no notes, or other items). I’d be very interested to hear any reminiscences from his former students. Clearly we all learned from him.

I was looking around at items I have in my archive of correspondence with Armin, links and materials he had sent me, and I am wondering if anyone is attempting to collect any written/media traces that are in danger of being lost — I was reading his review of Pixelache from 2007 and there were several interviews he did, but those mp3 links were dead… :-(

I do hope, along with the Stubnitz tapes that there will fall together some of those network fragments. I’d be happy to collect and host anything that folks find that cannot be preserved on some other server…

Echoing Armin speaking about Robert Adrian’s passing just 16 months ago:

“we will always remember you well”

peace,

john