begin back to work. arbeit macht frei. within the largest hierarchic structure since I was here (University of Colorado) last in 1997. still a free agent, but about to become something different than that. being based somewhere, archive to rest in itself, in perpetuity. the realization of the archivist is the perfect return of all fragments of the archive to the continua of their genesis. the dissolution of the re-presentation. the vanishing of the record into the flux of energies that spawned it (and the death of the human agent who constructed the social need for re-presentation to begin with).
tempered steel. heated and quenched. energy injected at one rate, and withdrawn at another. (changes in energy states are measured by time and quantity. and distance). pacing flow from and around the body is the core of stress relief (stress being the un- or mis-regulated flow into or out of a region). how to expand the descriptions of flows? how to practice the awareness and regulation (or deregulation of flow). is there anything left?
perfunctory conversations. feeling as though social interactions are not, not, there. can’t think of a descriptive word.